i
will never plant another
jalapeno pepper
for a man i love.
i don’t know if there’s magic
to it, or just bad luck
but as soon as roots
curl into fertile soil,
fingers start to uncurl
from my hair
like one space can only spare
so much heat--
and peppers will grow
when people won’t
and how can i feel lonely
when i know that?
it’s just the nature of things.
I want to rip that plant
out of the ground because
i feel like it’s laughing at me,
but one of us deserves to blossom.
i’m so mad at it for
being here still, when
he’s not. but
shouldn’t i be grateful?
thank you for staying,
even though I
I hope I linger
and burn in the back
of your throat like
whiskey drinks
and cigarettes--
other things held with reverence
when they please you,
that you drop without a thought
when you’re done.
what there is
was
between us looks like
beach glass--
it shone like
so many radiant drops
of sun and sea at the beginning
but it’s cloudy now,
and dusty,
stuck in an in between
opacity, so far
from the abandon
of the waves
and excited fingers that
held it up as a precious jewel,
priceless,
then.
Heirlooms (for my father, on my grandfather's...) by nicolemonique, literature
Literature
Heirlooms (for my father, on my grandfather's...)
I have my grandfather's hands, and my father's.
I have their hands and
I have their name, a hand-me-down
that fits—
I'll be the last to wear it.
My hands do things
their hands have done and more,
and less.
I have their hands, and
I have a back that bends
into my work, and a penchant
for humor when I need it.
I have my grandfather's hands, and my father's,
and I carry their guilt, I think,
the sins of the father are visited
on the child--
but I have their dreams too, I think,
and the same way of hoping,
and when I write sometimes my
words aren't my own,
and when I look down I see
grandfather's hands, and my father's.
for six years
you've been settling
like a water-stained
box in a basement sitting
in some corner sinking
into yourself you've been waiting
for something to happen
for so long that waiting
seems like enough now--
it's full of so much
potential--
but your sharp edges are
sagging,
for a quarter of your life
you've been dormant
and i wonder--
i fuss with frayed flaps
where the tape doesn't stick,
it's soft like thin velvet--
i peel back papery layers
and i wonder:
what will fall out
of you when all
those walls fall away?
instead of breathing,
air pushes its way inside
and i can only drive it out
for a moment
before it charges in again
and fills unwilling
lungs,
forces them to expand out
like wings stretching
into sky and sun
a rush of air
that violates a sacred space
and takes its place--
sets up camp
nice and easy
near my heart
and i'm so tired
i can't evict it
like i want,
i just can't breathe
when winter comes.
If I had a son, I'd say by nicolemonique, literature
Literature
If I had a son, I'd say
I can see already
the woman you'll find someday--
I can just barely make her out
so far away still,
but even from a distance
I can see she's beautiful.
When you come to me
with those eyes I've looked
into through sun and rain,
those eyes I've watched
fill with fury and joy,
worry and wonder--
when those eyes shine
with some new light
that isn't mine,
when they glow
with a question you don't know
you're trying to ask,
I'll see what you need
(you were never mine
to keep)
and I'll love her completely
so that you can do that too.
everybody loves a clearing by nicolemonique, literature
Literature
everybody loves a clearing
I'm a child of the earth--
made from mud that's
thick and cold--
I catch sunlight in my hair
but I have winter in my bones
and moss under my tongue
and further down below
a thorny thicket grows
between my legs, I hide
shadows behind my knees
I have twigs between my toes
I whisper in the quiet
things that everybody knows:
that everybody loves a clearing--
I wish I was one of those.
i
will never plant another
jalapeno pepper
for a man i love.
i don’t know if there’s magic
to it, or just bad luck
but as soon as roots
curl into fertile soil,
fingers start to uncurl
from my hair
like one space can only spare
so much heat--
and peppers will grow
when people won’t
and how can i feel lonely
when i know that?
it’s just the nature of things.
I want to rip that plant
out of the ground because
i feel like it’s laughing at me,
but one of us deserves to blossom.
i’m so mad at it for
being here still, when
he’s not. but
shouldn’t i be grateful?
thank you for staying,
even though I
I hope I linger
and burn in the back
of your throat like
whiskey drinks
and cigarettes--
other things held with reverence
when they please you,
that you drop without a thought
when you’re done.
what there is
was
between us looks like
beach glass--
it shone like
so many radiant drops
of sun and sea at the beginning
but it’s cloudy now,
and dusty,
stuck in an in between
opacity, so far
from the abandon
of the waves
and excited fingers that
held it up as a precious jewel,
priceless,
then.
Heirlooms (for my father, on my grandfather's...) by nicolemonique, literature
Literature
Heirlooms (for my father, on my grandfather's...)
I have my grandfather's hands, and my father's.
I have their hands and
I have their name, a hand-me-down
that fits—
I'll be the last to wear it.
My hands do things
their hands have done and more,
and less.
I have their hands, and
I have a back that bends
into my work, and a penchant
for humor when I need it.
I have my grandfather's hands, and my father's,
and I carry their guilt, I think,
the sins of the father are visited
on the child--
but I have their dreams too, I think,
and the same way of hoping,
and when I write sometimes my
words aren't my own,
and when I look down I see
grandfather's hands, and my father's.
for six years
you've been settling
like a water-stained
box in a basement sitting
in some corner sinking
into yourself you've been waiting
for something to happen
for so long that waiting
seems like enough now--
it's full of so much
potential--
but your sharp edges are
sagging,
for a quarter of your life
you've been dormant
and i wonder--
i fuss with frayed flaps
where the tape doesn't stick,
it's soft like thin velvet--
i peel back papery layers
and i wonder:
what will fall out
of you when all
those walls fall away?
instead of breathing,
air pushes its way inside
and i can only drive it out
for a moment
before it charges in again
and fills unwilling
lungs,
forces them to expand out
like wings stretching
into sky and sun
a rush of air
that violates a sacred space
and takes its place--
sets up camp
nice and easy
near my heart
and i'm so tired
i can't evict it
like i want,
i just can't breathe
when winter comes.
If I had a son, I'd say by nicolemonique, literature
Literature
If I had a son, I'd say
I can see already
the woman you'll find someday--
I can just barely make her out
so far away still,
but even from a distance
I can see she's beautiful.
When you come to me
with those eyes I've looked
into through sun and rain,
those eyes I've watched
fill with fury and joy,
worry and wonder--
when those eyes shine
with some new light
that isn't mine,
when they glow
with a question you don't know
you're trying to ask,
I'll see what you need
(you were never mine
to keep)
and I'll love her completely
so that you can do that too.
everybody loves a clearing by nicolemonique, literature
Literature
everybody loves a clearing
I'm a child of the earth--
made from mud that's
thick and cold--
I catch sunlight in my hair
but I have winter in my bones
and moss under my tongue
and further down below
a thorny thicket grows
between my legs, I hide
shadows behind my knees
I have twigs between my toes
I whisper in the quiet
things that everybody knows:
that everybody loves a clearing--
I wish I was one of those.
Yellow Dandelion by Another-Hitchhiker, literature
Literature
Yellow Dandelion
Aspire to be a rose if you must,
whose elegance is nurtured by lovers and those beloved,
whose flushed colour and whispering scent
are repackaged again and again
but never captured —
But first consider the dandelion:
crushed and plucked at every wake,
hailed as less than the earth from which it springs
(but springs nonetheless)
and cursed by all who own them,
but
woven into crowns and fine jewelry by children,
resilient as their spirits,
dying only in the airs of their wishes
and their hopes.
The summer was so hot
the dogs stuck to the sidewalks
with the newspapers
and the black metal cans
everyone left waiting on the curb.
You could smell it
in the glass pitchers
on table tops,
and the sheets that never
dried on the clothes lines;
the canvas beach bags
mothers dragged wearily
across the sand
and the ice cream trucks
melting across the highways.
Children felt it open
up the windows at night
and find a corner
of the bed to smother,
while fathers baited it on hooks
or mowed it down
in flat, dry stripes
as if begging each other
to escape.
And the crickets just hummed
beneath the corn silk
and the dry mouth
I actually miss the way you say my name by Gay-Mountain, literature
Literature
I actually miss the way you say my name
You know that
I prefer it to the way you kiss;
The chocolate enthusiasm
with which you draw the vowels.
You have to cry,
but you say it
Like a child
Rolling her favourite toy toward me.
The dwelling rust
of Wednesday
swells this hollow garden
and somewhere in the yard
a tire swing goes flat
against the skyline.
It chokes the autumn light
left hiding
in the silo,
drowning out
the crush of
mums and ragged berries
It bubbles in the percolator
steeping still life
in the caul
of early morning -
the red-brown crumbs
of breakfast toast and jam
growing ghosts upon
the silverware
And deep inside
I still hear you waking up
the soft salute
of morning voices
stirring the wind
outside my window.
Remember what you love,
you with sand in your teeth
and the feral burn of hunger
in your eyes.
God sends his regrets.
He made you grasping and slow,
in a late hour
when the wine washed low.
Remember what you love.
Fall to your knees in the toss
and the swell, quell
the appetite of the cold black sea.
Beg blessings for your home
and the salt-sick trees.
Reach what lies near:
the fat-faced child, the sweet-soft lamb;
tether the tantrum, trickle the blood.
Offer psalms to what is holy,
whisper the name of what you love
as it bobs in the bleak mad sea.
everybody loves a clearing by nicolemonique, literature
Literature
everybody loves a clearing
I'm a child of the earth--
made from mud that's
thick and cold--
I catch sunlight in my hair
but I have winter in my bones
and moss under my tongue
and further down below
a thorny thicket grows
between my legs, I hide
shadows behind my knees
I have twigs between my toes
I whisper in the quiet
things that everybody knows:
that everybody loves a clearing--
I wish I was one of those.
I never know how people feel about getting a million billion comments thanking them for favoriting work i've done, so typically i abstain, and just post a journal about it every once in a while. so here's another one!
truly, outside support of stuff i write still feels like a special treat or like some sort of reward from the universe--it's a wonderful feeling to have people interested in a facet of my life so inherent to the thing that makes me me.
thank you so much.
this morning i found out that the trouble is received a DD, which was really an amazing surprise. I'm so grateful and humbled at all of the support on this and other pieces. you guys are amazing. <3
Hello! I love your work, you're very talented! Could you check out my work too? I just started a super low low price bid on ebay for an original acrylic painting of a fantasy fairy! Find it here: www.ebay.com/itm/141402702977?…
You dont even have to buy, im grateful for even just a view